When we're adolescents, teenagers, or young adults~
something wonderful happens (not to all of us, but most).
We become REBELS~! We Rebel against Authority, and
those who are not sympathetic towards our very real
metamorphosis, in which we attempt to gain a little
separation from the herd (flock), and 'Get To Know
Our SELF'. During my Pre-Christian/Christian Phase,
I gobbled up all that I could about this odd, twisted,
mesmerizing religion. It is truly a LOVE/HATE
relationship, even for the most devout followers.
The most interesting stuff comes out of the 'Lost
Books' or Apocrypha of the Bible~ along with the
Dead Sea Scrolls and random other Gospels that
the Desert has coughed up from un-broken clay
jars and hidden cliff-dwelling caves. Turns out,
the un-edited History portrays Jesus more as
a Rebel Leader whose true path was Self-Knowledge
and Understanding. The idea is, if you can truly
'Know Thyself', then you will be that much closer
to knowing and understanding fellow Humans.
In the Book of Thomas, which was NOT included
in the Producer's Cut (323 Nicea), Jesus states:
'Those who Understand me shall have everlasting
life'. This is better known now as the quote: 'Ye
who shall believe in me, shall have everlasting Life'.
BIG DIFFERENCE~! One simple word change...
To BELIEVE is an act of Faith, that requires 0 intelligence...
To UNDERSTAND is an act of reflection, introspection,
requiring lots and lots of thought...
In regard to the Book of Thomas, the phrase 'shall have
everlasting life' is now put into another context. If one
understands another, their actions, their path~ then
they are closer to 'living' in that person's shoes~ or
sandals (whatever). To Live is also to be CONSCIOUS,
and to be conscious, is to be Conscientious. So there~!
I 'M A REBEL~ SHE'S A REBEL~ WOULDNCHA
LIKE TO BE A REBEL TOO !?
In the spirit of attaining understanding, did I have
the audacity to PAINT the following mural~ back
during a period when self-sacrifice and persecution
were big personal issues, fighting for a foothold into
the world of mutual respect~ a place called Adulthood~!
I just hope that, if those weird Heaven & Hell places
actually exist, that the Universally approved Jesus approves
of all the attempts I made to sympathize with His plight~!
HAPPY EASTER everybody~!
2 FT X 6 FT, ACRYLIC ON ILLUSTRATION BOARD

grotesque details accentuate this morbid theme
self-portrait, early twenties, circa 1988~!